The Reason

I created this blog because I wanted to start journaling online and documenting my journey of ups and downs and successes and setbacks. The name of this blog was coined after I realized that I only wore Reeboks for exercising and Converse the rest of the time (I'm a collector).

I'm currently unhappy with how I'm treating myself and my body. I used to enjoy the feeling I have before, during, and after running; I used to enjoy feeling put together when I planned an outfit and do my hair and makeup; I used to look in the mirror and enjoy what I saw. However, after a sad event took place in my life, I couldn't bring myself to enjoy those things anymore. I would just get out of bed, throw on clothes, throw my hair up into a ponytail, go to school, come home from school, and lay around all day, then the cycle would repeat. I was basically running on auto-pilot for months. I gained a lot of weight back that I had lost over the summer (I don't know the exact amount; I got rid of the scale a long while ago). It got to a point where my unhappiness was affecting my relationship, my attitude at school, and my mindset. Once I finally recognized all of that, I decided I didn't want to be unhappy anymore.

Last week, I watched a documentary titled "From Fat To Finish Line", and throughout the entire film, I found myself relating to every single runner in a way regarding why I started running in the first place; my love of running was realized again. I found my Reeboks collecting dust under my den couch, and set them on the steps beside the front door. As to not overwhelm myself, I decided to first develop a schedule and decide at what pace I wanted to start - I know I can't run for a straight 15 minutes like I used to during the summer. Of course, I'll be incorporating more than just running into my exercise routine, but again, baby steps. I also want to make dietary changes, but I know from experience that will be something I'll want to ease into later, slowly but surely.

I didn't have a scale when I first began actively exercising, so I don't know what my starting weight was or "ending" weight was (I prefer "during weight" instead of "ending weight"); I just know I looked slimmer in the mirror. Now that I've gained a lot of weight back, I look about the same as I remember I did starting out earlier this year, maybe even more... I pulled a scale out of the attic, and I will be using it for starting weight and during weight updates. So, starting weight right now: 201 pounds. Wow, that's actually not as high as I thought it was going to be but high nonetheless.
[ADD ON: I am 5 foot 9 inches, 18 years old, Endomorph body type.]

Well, here I go. Join me on my journey if you'd like.